14w5d!

Hubby and I went in to start our prenatal care yesterday. To say that I was nervous and scared is putting it lightly. After what happened last time we both were extremely scared.

However, things are good thus far. Dr. Brisinger decided to check abdominally after I told him about how far along I thought I was. And within seconds we found this beautiful treasure:

The baby looked so cute and plump...lol. We even got to see him/her reach up and kick it's little legs in the air. I was mesmerized by it. Hubby asked about how far along and the doctor confirmed that the baby was measuring at exactly 14w5d. I was so happy because I knew it was somewhere between 13-14 weeks... so that means baby is growing perfectly. Yay us! Our next appointment is next month on the 23rd. Hopefully we'll be able to find out the sex too! :) Yayayayayay!

I knew it!

Positive Pregnancy Test :)

I am truly excited and scared all at the same time. It's so unexpected what with everything

that happened in the last month. But I have to remember that God is in control of everything and that things will be okay. Everything will be okay. Please keep us in your prayers.

1st Prenatal Appointment

Today Manuel and I went in for our first prenatal appointment. I was so nervous and anxious. Manuel on the other hand, looked very happy to hopefully see the heartbeat. Later on, after the appointment he did confess he was scared as well. It made me realize how hard it must be for him because he has no idea what's going on internally. He really only knows what I tell him.  I'll keep that in mind and keep him more informed as we grow along. 

Overall, the appointment was pretty generic. My vitals were taken and I had to take another pregnancy tests to verify I was still preggo. Then we were taken to the room where we waited no more than 10 minutes for the doctor to come. When he did he went over all the lab work from my last appointment and all that good stuff. According to him all my bloodwork came in perfect. Nothing at all to be alarmed about. Then he did a transvaginal ultrasound. It was uncomfortable, but expected. As soon as he put the wand in we were able to see the yolk sac and some slights of flickering which he said was the heartbeat. However, he became concerned that the pregnancy looked to be only five weeks along. I, of course told him that I didn't think the initial calculation was correct because I ovulated late. We then reviewed my information and he adjusted the data accordingly. I am still a little worried though, because I thought I was 6 weeks already, so that puts me a week behind as  well. He didn't seem too worried, but scheduled a follow up ultrasound for January 12th. He said that by then we should see a huge difference. 

I have to admit, I'm scared. Pregnancy is a scary thing. A beautiful, but scary thing. I'm hopeful that I was just off and that conception occurred later than I thought. It is perfectly possible and that is why our timing is off. Seeing the screen flicker did help balance my feelings. It sure gave me hope. Hope that our little monkey is in there and beating his/her little heart away. Hopefully, in two weeks time he/she keeps growing and developing as he/she should. Please keep us in your prayers. 

Here's a little picture of what we were able to see today. 

I'm sure everything will be just fine, but again, please keep us in your prayers. A little extra prayers can only help. :)

Hope you all have a wonderful rest of 2012! I know we will definitely try to stay positive and focus only on good positive thoughts. 

Oh, by the way, with all the baby talk I forgot to mention..... tomorrow is our anniversary! Manuel and I will be celebrating our 9th wedding anniversary! How exciting! I'm such a lucky lady y'all! He's the most amazing, loving, thoughtful husband I could ever want. :)

Pregnancy Update-5 Weeks!

How Far Along?: 5 Weeks!
How Big is the Baby?: Well, it's an embryo now! He/she is the size of an apple seed.
How Am I Feeling?: Thankful and full of worries...
Weight?: Zip. Zero. Nada.
How I'm Changing?: I'm being more concientious about how I spend our money. I know that in a few months we'll be having to spend on welcoming our new baby, so I'm very careful not to waste.
Symptoms: Tender, fuller, bigger breasts. I always felt my breasts were full, but omg they have grown at least a cup size already! I'm also peeing a lot. A whole lot. Other than that, nada. Which makes me worry, but then again, I may be a lucky one.
Cravings: Bean and cheese burritos. Yup, my baby is mexican! lol
Highlights of the Week: Last Monday we officially started our prenatal care. It was nice to see that this is indeed a reality. Funny how no matter how many home pregnancy tests I took I still did not believe it.
Next Doc Appointment: Tuesday, December 27th @ 330pm. I am so excited! I'm very hopeful that by then we'll be able to see our little seed developing and see the heartbeat! eeeeek!

Could it be?

Over thanksgiving break I purchased some cheap pregnancy strips from online. The reviews were awesome so I thought, I don't lose anything by trying them out. Well, I've done just that and on Wednesday I got what I thought looked like a possible positive... But I still wasn't sure and I've tested everyday since... And today I got this. It's faint, but it's gotten darker... And it's there! On fertility friend they are calling this a positive, but I'm still not 100% sold. So today we got the First Response Kit.... And I'm sooooo scared to test. So scared! I'm gonna wait for tomorrow. I'm praying to God that the 2nd line shows. As they say, "a line is a line." So I ask of you if you have a minute to pray for us and wish us luck and health. It's been 9 years of trying... Nine years y'all!

Thanks!

Natural Supplements for PCOS

I wish I didn't have PCOS. But I do. Normally doctors prescribe meds such as metformin, clomid, and birth control pills to "reclaim" fertility, but I've always felt it was more of a forced situation plus you're stuffing yourself with chemicals and somehow I don't believe that is going to help in the long run. I prefer a more natural way to regain my well-being. I began working out, eating healthier, and about a month ago I began supplementing my health with fish oil and a prenatal multi-vitamin.

The fish oil has completely cleared my skin and the multi-vitamin has provided me with much needed vitamins that I was otherwise not getting enough of. Something I did notice after starting fish oil was that my hair is now getting quite wavy. It's a nice side effect I guess. LOL. But other than that it's been a positive experience. 

This month I'm adding Vitex to the mix. Vitex is pretty much supposed to help regulate your menstrual cycle. If you're anything like me and have PCOS you know how hard it is to achieve that. Personally, I have a period about once every six months which obviously is no bueno. Any who, I'm hopeful this little herb can help me.

I purchased my first bottle at GNC for 6 bucks. Pretty cheap for something so important I'd say.

The bottle says to take 1 capsule two or three times daily for eight to twelve weeks. Thereafter, take 1 capsule daily. I decided to go with the lower dosage and start off with two a day for this week. I will tell you that within minutes I began to get cramping. I couldn't believe how quickly it started having an effect. I took the second one with my dinner and again I got the cramps. The way this is going I think I'll be seeing positive results very soon. As for the cramps, they're not so bad.... I take it as a sign that something is working down there... Well, with that said I'm ending this post. I'll post an update if all goes according to plan. 

Weekly Weigh-In

Busy week at work again. So busy, that I knew I'd end up staying late prepping, so I took my car. I really wasn't expecting to lose weight, but I did which is a shocker. I guess my body really wants to get rid of the excess :)

Starting Weight: 181
Ending Weight: 179.2
Loss/Gain: -1.8

I didn't meet my weekly 2lb goal by 2 oz!!!!, but I did make it to the 170's which is a record! I'm loving it! I also reached the 50lb loss which that in itself is an accomplishment. PLUS, according to my BMI tracker I am no longer "SEVERLY OBESE." Ughh... those words were just so harsh...lol, I'm now just "obese." Boo! But, that just motivates me to keep going and pushing hard. I CAN DO THIS!

By the way, I'm not preggo. Bummer... but I will get to see my doc on Thursday where I hope she can give me some hope... it's been a while since I've been to the dr... so I'm nervous as to what she'll say to me....

Any who, my goal for the coming week will be 177.2lbs. Should be easy since it's a short work week and I'll get to do a lot of walking in Disneyland next Friday :) Should be fun!

Big Fat NEGATIVE

It sucks! I know it's only been a month of trying, but it really does suck to know that it didn't happen. :( Oh well, here's to next month.

Time to take a pregnancy test....

I'm anxious and nervous and everything in between. Aghhhhhh..... I try not to think about it so that I don't stress, but omygod it's killing me to find out.... because if that's the case I'm going to have to stop the weigh loss for now. Which is totally fine. I would much rather have a healthy and beautiful baby. 

By the way, last time as I slept a name came to mind if it were a girl. Her name would be Paulina Elizabeth.... I really like the ring to it :) Now if I had a boy.... I'm still thinking.... 

But first things first. Take a pregnancy test and hope it's a positive!

Taking Care of My PCOS the Natural Way

I've mentioned before that I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago. It was a horrible experience because of all the side effects, but it also helped me see that I wasn't alone. However, my doctors were not that knowledgeable in the subject and the first thing they did was prescribe Metformin and Provera. I hated taking meds. I mean they helped bring back my period and luckily I didn't get a lot of the side effects other women have, but I never really felt that my periods were natural. Forgive me, but I felt like I was putting more chemicals inside my body than were necessary. After a few months I stopped. Sadly, I didn't really do anything else.

That was until this year when I completely changed my ways. I began exercising and promised myself that I wouldn't stop. I've been doing great. I've actually spent a lot of time researching PCOS and really getting to know my body. I can now tell when something is going to throw my system off and when I'm all good. You see, with PCOS you really have to pay attention to every little detail. Your body tells you what works and what doesn't. You have to learn to listen to it. Any who, I know that I need a multi-vitamin, so I researched a good natural whole food one. I came up with Rainbow Light Prenatal Petite. I chose that one because the pills are quite small and leave no after-taste. I picked the prenatal over the regular one because it's always been recommended to me by my doctors to take prenatals if trying to get pregnant. And since I am, it was the perfect choice. I got mine from Whole Foods.

While I was at Whole Foods I also got a bottle of Nordic Naturals Ultimate Omega Fish Oil. I've been meaning to get it for a while. They say that fish oil is really good for women who suffer from PCOS as it helps improve fertility.

I'm going to begin taking them tomorrow 8/1 to see if I notice any changes. Hopefully it'll be all good :). I'll post an update later on. 

Guess Who Finally Came to Town?

LOL. I'm probably the only girl who gets super excited when this happens. Why you ask? Well, because it hardly ever comes and when it does I feel normal. I feel like the woman that I am. Even though I've got cramps, feel bloated, my boobs hurt, and I'm such an emotional roller coaster, I can't help but get excited to think that my body will finally get with it. I mean I'm 31 and I would LOVE to have a beautiful healthy baby soon..... how awesome would that be? But I gotta take it slow... one day at a time... and when God decides it'll happen. :) It will happen.