14w5d!

Hubby and I went in to start our prenatal care yesterday. To say that I was nervous and scared is putting it lightly. After what happened last time we both were extremely scared.

However, things are good thus far. Dr. Brisinger decided to check abdominally after I told him about how far along I thought I was. And within seconds we found this beautiful treasure:

The baby looked so cute and plump...lol. We even got to see him/her reach up and kick it's little legs in the air. I was mesmerized by it. Hubby asked about how far along and the doctor confirmed that the baby was measuring at exactly 14w5d. I was so happy because I knew it was somewhere between 13-14 weeks... so that means baby is growing perfectly. Yay us! Our next appointment is next month on the 23rd. Hopefully we'll be able to find out the sex too! :) Yayayayayay!

1st Prenatal Appointment

Today Manuel and I went in for our first prenatal appointment. I was so nervous and anxious. Manuel on the other hand, looked very happy to hopefully see the heartbeat. Later on, after the appointment he did confess he was scared as well. It made me realize how hard it must be for him because he has no idea what's going on internally. He really only knows what I tell him.  I'll keep that in mind and keep him more informed as we grow along. 

Overall, the appointment was pretty generic. My vitals were taken and I had to take another pregnancy tests to verify I was still preggo. Then we were taken to the room where we waited no more than 10 minutes for the doctor to come. When he did he went over all the lab work from my last appointment and all that good stuff. According to him all my bloodwork came in perfect. Nothing at all to be alarmed about. Then he did a transvaginal ultrasound. It was uncomfortable, but expected. As soon as he put the wand in we were able to see the yolk sac and some slights of flickering which he said was the heartbeat. However, he became concerned that the pregnancy looked to be only five weeks along. I, of course told him that I didn't think the initial calculation was correct because I ovulated late. We then reviewed my information and he adjusted the data accordingly. I am still a little worried though, because I thought I was 6 weeks already, so that puts me a week behind as  well. He didn't seem too worried, but scheduled a follow up ultrasound for January 12th. He said that by then we should see a huge difference. 

I have to admit, I'm scared. Pregnancy is a scary thing. A beautiful, but scary thing. I'm hopeful that I was just off and that conception occurred later than I thought. It is perfectly possible and that is why our timing is off. Seeing the screen flicker did help balance my feelings. It sure gave me hope. Hope that our little monkey is in there and beating his/her little heart away. Hopefully, in two weeks time he/she keeps growing and developing as he/she should. Please keep us in your prayers. 

Here's a little picture of what we were able to see today. 

I'm sure everything will be just fine, but again, please keep us in your prayers. A little extra prayers can only help. :)

Hope you all have a wonderful rest of 2012! I know we will definitely try to stay positive and focus only on good positive thoughts. 

Oh, by the way, with all the baby talk I forgot to mention..... tomorrow is our anniversary! Manuel and I will be celebrating our 9th wedding anniversary! How exciting! I'm such a lucky lady y'all! He's the most amazing, loving, thoughtful husband I could ever want. :)

Just Breathe

This week has been hard for me psychologically. From watching my body go haywire to simply not feeling like myself. Luckily, I have the most loving and nurturing husband who held me and simply told me to "breathe." It actually works.

Just now he took me on a walk and I was able to do just that. I was able to see that I'm just like every other woman out there who is worried about one thing or another because ultimately we know everything is out of our control. I realized I have to have faith and trust that Diosito and La Virgensita know what they're doing. I have to believe that everything is going to be alright.

I mean seriously, I can't be stressing myself over every little thing. I'm also going to limit my goggling of things because seriously, that's a disaster waiting to happen. LOL.

Pregnancy Update-5 Weeks!

How Far Along?: 5 Weeks!
How Big is the Baby?: Well, it's an embryo now! He/she is the size of an apple seed.
How Am I Feeling?: Thankful and full of worries...
Weight?: Zip. Zero. Nada.
How I'm Changing?: I'm being more concientious about how I spend our money. I know that in a few months we'll be having to spend on welcoming our new baby, so I'm very careful not to waste.
Symptoms: Tender, fuller, bigger breasts. I always felt my breasts were full, but omg they have grown at least a cup size already! I'm also peeing a lot. A whole lot. Other than that, nada. Which makes me worry, but then again, I may be a lucky one.
Cravings: Bean and cheese burritos. Yup, my baby is mexican! lol
Highlights of the Week: Last Monday we officially started our prenatal care. It was nice to see that this is indeed a reality. Funny how no matter how many home pregnancy tests I took I still did not believe it.
Next Doc Appointment: Tuesday, December 27th @ 330pm. I am so excited! I'm very hopeful that by then we'll be able to see our little seed developing and see the heartbeat! eeeeek!

Sleep and Where Are the Pregnancy Symptoms?

For about a month I hadn't been able to sleep a whole night through. Which is weird, because normally I can sleep through anything. Well, for two nights straight I have been able to stay in a deep sleep for at least 4 hours. It feels great. I'm thinking that I better enjoy it before the symptoms start kicking my butt.

On other news, I'm worrying myself to death. I'm not nauseous or tired. I should be grateful, but a large part of me thinks that's not normal. So the fact that my boobies feel extremely swollen and tender actually makes me feel somewhat okay. LOL. My nurse even specifically told me not to worry. But it's hard not to worry when we've been working on this baby for 9 years. I guess I'm looking for more proof that indeed he/she is in there. Waiting for the 27th is going to be torture! Hahahaha.... I'm such a worry wart!

Guess Who Finally Came to Town?

LOL. I'm probably the only girl who gets super excited when this happens. Why you ask? Well, because it hardly ever comes and when it does I feel normal. I feel like the woman that I am. Even though I've got cramps, feel bloated, my boobs hurt, and I'm such an emotional roller coaster, I can't help but get excited to think that my body will finally get with it. I mean I'm 31 and I would LOVE to have a beautiful healthy baby soon..... how awesome would that be? But I gotta take it slow... one day at a time... and when God decides it'll happen. :) It will happen.

There are few things I want in life that God hasn't granted me...

but my biggest wish and hope is to be a mother. Now, I'm not fooling myself. . .I'm 30, and the chances of that dream coming true are slowly disappearing. However, God granted me the opportunity to be involved in these girls lives. They are my nieces C & A. . .and let me tell you. . .there is nothing I wouldn't do for them! They are my pride and joy. They make me smile and they make me cry because they are the closest thing I have to a child of my own, but also because they are awesome! They're such little people with BIG personalities. They know what they want and they are not afraid to ask for it because they know they deserve it. They know that they're perfect just the way they are. My hubby tells me that God knows why he does what he does and that he's never wrong. I trust him. I trust that he wants me to spoil these girls and teach them things that I would teach my own children. I want them to know that no matter what I love them and will always be there for them. Even if down the road God does grant me that one little wish C & A will always be my babies. Always.

Angie, Clarice, and Manuel.... my loves <3

Love,

Sandrah