Not feeling so hot.

There. I said it. I'm so freakin' constipated it's horrible. I've always been pretty regular and since I began my pregnancy that's been haywire. Today I had a scare though. I went to the restroom to release and I somehow smelled blood so I looked down at the TP to check and low and behold there was blood there. I got so scared. I still am a bit, but they say it could be from straining to poop. Ughhh. Talk about stress. I feel horrible today. Hubby and I were supposed to go out to the movies, but now I just want to lay in bed and cry. The thought of losing my baby was too much to handle. Thank God I have a doctor's appointment next Tuesday because I seriously have all these questions and concerns that I need answers to. I need to know my little monkey is okay in there. I wish I could talk to my mom or sis about these things, but I don't want to tell them yet. It's too fragile right now. Bleh. I tell ya' being pregnant is beautiful, but so so so scary at the same time. Welp. . . for now this is it. I'll try to relax myself and drink plenty of fluids and go for a walk later. I need fresh air. Maybe if I feel better we'll get to that movie date.  Poor hubby :(