I have a feeling...

but I don't want to jinx it. I don't want to get my hopes up. As happy as it would make me to know that again there might be that little chance I also get sick to my stomach filled with fear. I don't know if I could do this again. I don't think I could end this year in sadness. I mean you have to give it to me. 2012 has been filled with loss for me. I lost my baby. I lost my boss. I lost the feeling of family at work and just recently, I lost my grandfather. It's been rough. Yet somehow I'm here. So it's true. . . I will survive. Life does go on. But by the same token, I did regain my faith in God. Because only He was able to get me through all these losses. So yeah, I have a feeling I may be expecting again, but I really won't know until a few more days. And if I am, please God... give me the strength and courage and faith to stay positive and stress-free. And if I'm not, give me the strength, and courage, and faith to keep trying.