The Week Behind

I went back to work and have decided that although I lost my precious baby I would get back up and grow from this experience. Things seem to be moving right along. Although, I do have my moments. Some days in which I feel like it's a good day and then others in which I just want to crawl into bed and cry. But I've come to understand that this is normal. And IT'S OKAY.

Work was work. A million things to do, but at times no motivation to do them. Not many people have approached me about my pregnancy, but I truly think they've noticed since my bump is gone. I'm kind of glad they're being this way because I don't have to answer any questions.

In the afternoons my hubby and I go on walks (1-2 miles). They feel great. They're very therapeutic I feel.
Today, we even went over to my grandma's for some dinner. She had made some fish and "tornejas" which by the way were delicious. We spent a few hours there and she seemed very happy to have us. It was nice spending some time with her. Then we headed home and watched some tv. I knocked out. I don't know why, but it just felt like a long week. I also knocked out because I needed to sleep since we're going on a hike tomorrow. Hubby and I are taking the pups to Solstice Canyon in Malibu. Should be fun...

Any who, that was my week. Not stress free, but a good week nonetheless.

It's My Birthday and I'll Cry If I Want To....

Ughhh. I've been an emotional mess since late last night. I guess it's because I really was excited about my pregnancy and saw myself so happy on my 32nd birthday. That of course did not become a reality. In fact, what happened was the worst outcome ever. :( I'm just tired y'all. Tired of feeling like I'll never be a mommy. Tired of having the dream. I miss my perfect little baby oh so much. I know she's in a better place, but for today, what I wouldn't give to have her in my life.

On other news, I don't have anything planned for the day. In fact, I didn't even go in to work. My hear just wasn't in it today. I don't think I would've been able to manage all the questions today. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to go in and get on with life. Just not today.

I'm thinking I want to go to The LA County Museum of Art and see the exposition that they have for Frida Kahlo. Seems nice. We shall see.

Alrighty peeps... have a blessed day.

Nervous 😳

I'm nervous to go back to work tomorrow. There are just so many mixed emotions inside of me right now. It completely doesn't help that tomorrow happens to be my 32nd birthday as well.

I'm hopeful that the day goes by quickly and smoothly. I pray that people are sensitive to my situation and that I don't find myself crying in a corner.

So I'll pray to my Diosito that I get through this very sensitive day.