Growing A Garden Full of Love

It's a beautiful day out. God sure is shining it's sun down on me today. Had a doctors appointment earlier today. Everything looks ok. He seemed very optimistic. Still have a small clot that needs to make it's way out, but Dr. didn't seem too concerned. But he did schedule me in to see him again in two weeks.

On another note, the day is pretty. I asked hubby to stop over at Target and we did. Somehow we managed to make it over to the gardening section. It was so pretty and inspiring to see all those colors and got a bunch of different ideas as to what I want to do.

While there, we decided to grab some seeds and grow some veggies, herbs, and a couple flowers. Hopefully they'll take. Here are all the goodies we got.

Once home we went out to the back patio and got our hands dirty. It's such a hard time in our lives, but somehow we're closer than we ever have been. Our baby is the best thing that's ever happened to us. My hubby kept telling me how much he loved me and was enjoying getting to do this with him. I felt truly loved. We were out there a while. Finally we finished planting and brought some inside. They'll be ready for some sun in about 8 weeks. A few stayed outside. I'm gonna try and take weekly pictures of the progress. We're actually very excited. LOL.

Later on we went over to my brothers house where my mom and step dad made some seafood soup. It was so good. We got to spend some much needed family time. It was nice. I really do love them with all my heart and am glad I have them all in my life. Luckily, we didn't talk about the miscarriage. It's just something I'm not ready to do yet. It's too painful to share. But good times were had and I'm sure my little angel had a lot to do with me enjoying myself.

Welp, that was my day. Full of sunshine. Hope you enjoyed yours and made the best of it.

A Fitting Quote From Dr. Seuss

Happy Birthday to Dr. Seuss. Sorry I couldn't be at work assisting in the celebration for your birthday, but I did manage to find this quote which pretty much is fitting for my situation right now. Thank you. Enjoy your day.

Music

I've been up since late last night cleaning and dusting and cleaning and dusting. Yesterday was a good day. As good as it can get after what happened. I was feeling optimistic and energized. But then I got emotional and I haven't been able to shake that feeling. I'm really trying to keep myself busy and not make too much noise as hubby got a little sick. He's fine, just a cold. But it got me thinking of how much he means to me and how different things would be without him. I am just so darn lucky to have him in my life. I hope he feels better soon.

So in order for me not to wake him I put my iPod on and listened to music as I cleaned. I put Pandora and it immediately started playing the last station I created; which just happened to be a Whitney Houston station. I created it when she passed to remember her for her great music. Any who, the first song that started playing was "Dreaming of You" By Selena. Oh my Lord, it hit me hard. Because that is exactly what I had been doing. I'd been staying up all night since I found out and talking to God and my little sweet angel. Dreaming, I guess.



I just broke down in tears as silently as I could. At that moment I realized I'm going to have some really good days and some really low ones. Things are going to happen that are going to trigger those emotions and feelings and I'll break down. I'm okay with that. It's a part of grieving, but gosh it's a hard one.

So just when I'm sobbing and feeling my heart come out of my chest another song comes on. This song is "When you Believe" by Whitney Houston. It is beautiful. I couldn't believe how comforting it was to hear it. It was as if God and my Angel were telling me not to give up. To just believe. And soon not only will things be alright, but if I believe maybe there will be that miracle.



It could all just be a coincidence, but at this moment I'll take any little glimpse of hope that God offers me.