Is It Really Bad News?

Yesterday my mom came by and happened to mention that my son's Godfather might be losing his job in a couple of weeks. According to her there is a list of employees that the company has to let go for unknown reasons. She said he is quite upset and frantic because for a long time, it was thought that his place of employment was solid. What you don't know though is that my husband also works there and just happens to be on vacation while this news is breaking. Of course I ask her if she knew if my hubby was on that "list." She said she didn't know, but that she feared he might be as well.

Soooooo logically, I panic. BUT within a few minutes a sense of calm sets in. I think that everything happens for a reason. I've been through worst. We've survived worst. I remembered speaking with my hubby about one of us staying home with Alejandro. Of course, we both were thinking me... but it's not the 1800's. There are plenty of good stay at home dads nowadays... and let's be honest... he would be great.

Any who, hubby overhears the conversation and gets defensive and worried. I suppose he begins to think of the worst. But I kindly reminded him about our dream plan. We always knew neither he nor I would quit our jobs. We knew we'd stick it out as much as possible, but if the chance were given... we'd take it.

Of course, losing an income would be a hit to us financially, but after crunching numbers, I think we can do it. We're thinking a year or two.

Of course, we don't know if it's true or not. Or if he's one of the ones that gets the boot, but I think God knows what he's doing and he's never let me down.

Of course I'm scared... I know hubby is too... but the idea of our son being cared for by his daddy as I work doesn't sound so bad. Again, we'll see... we'll pray that everything works out in the end.

Happy 1st Birthday to My Pollito!!!!

He is officially one. And my heart is both full of joy and melancholy. I already miss that little tiny 6lb13oz baby that I brought home with me a year ago. But I love the charming, gently, loving, little man I am watching grow before my eyes. He truly is my dream in real life.

We didn't have a huge party for him. Instead, we opted for a family only dinner at Giggles and Hugs. The kids had so much fun and he was completely partied out that he was out by dark.

Sanitizing Everything

I feel like a cleaning freak... all OCD and 'ish! Hahaha... first Alejandro got pink eye at my sister's and then he got a cold at the dr's... Then I went back to work after he was feeling better, but only to get strep throat! Woah... it was horrible! So I rushed my butt over to the dr's for a penicillin shot and 48hrs later I finally got relief. I walked around the house with hospital masks and gloves to prevent passing on the germs to my little man or hubby. Luckily, it looks as if all is clear. But of course not until I completely santizied the house and my office. I looked like a freak! hahaha... still, gotta keep it up because we are not going through this again any time soon. Nope sir eh. lol

My little sicky poo baby....

It's so hard to watch you cry and call out for me with such deep sorrow. I even wondered if it was worth it in the end. And it was and it wasn't. It was because you received God's eternal blessing and it wasn't because you were so over stimulated that I truly believe that allowed for these darn germs to get the best of you. And now I sit here late at night content that I'm finally seeing you rest a bit without waking up in a bad cough attack. . . and although it killed me to see your gorgeous eyes stuck together I smile seeing that happy little glow slowly return. Feel better real soon okay munchkin? Love you always. Mama.

Baptism

Ever since I knew of your existence I knew what I had to do as soon as practically possible. I had to give you up. To give you to God who has entrusted you to us. I often tell your daddy how I truly believe children are loaned to us. I'm trusting that God will bless you a long, healthy, fulfilling, and simply marvelous life. I am praying that both daddy and I get to be there every step of the way.

On Saturday we fulfilled our promise to baptize you. It was such a nice ceremony. You lucked out as you had the whole church to you and one other lucky little toddler. You both looked so handsome. You glowed and remained calm the entire ceremony. There wasn't a single person who could take their eyes off of you.... I included.

In the evening we enjoyed a nice celebration in your honor. Your grandma truly had a blast. You being only six months old snuggled in mine or daddy's arms through the night. You were peaceful and content.

For the record, I want you to know why we chose your Godparents. Martha is your uncle Luis' girlfriend. She's hard working, responsible, and a good person. Salvador is a family friend that has been around for the last 10 years or so and has always looked out for all of us. They both were like family before your baptism and now we have made it official. You're a very lucky lil man indeed.

Papas, I want you to know how much we all love you and how much we prayed for you before we even knew you. You are such a blessing to this world and I know that you are meant to do great things in this world. I pray that God continually guides me to be a better person, and in turn a better mother. Please always trust in God and believe you have a purpose. . .even when all seems lost... you, my dear, are meant to be... great.

God bless you always. Hugs and kisses.

Mommy.