Much Needed Update

I've been MIA for about a month and a half. Keeping myself busy. This month I visited Universal Horror Nights and the Queen Mary at night. Both are great and a lot of fun. I also went to Dia de Los Muertos at the Hollywood Forever Cemetery. I thought that was a great event. There was music, costumes, altars, and lots and lots of FOOD. I also went to see Paranormal Activity 3. Which I thought wasn't that great, but I'll give it a pass just because it's October. Now health wise, I've been yoyo-ing back and fourth between 168 and 170. I have indulged a lot, but have figured out how to keep me from gaining weight. I'm so proud of myself. I have a goal in mind to lose about 10lbs a month between now and my birthday in March. However, that's IF I don't get preggo. Then my goal will be not to go above the 180's. Of course I'd rather do the latter. But it's just so hard not having control of what's happening. I've been taking metformin since 10/4 and it's driving me insane. I can't seem to be able to take the 2 750 pills a day. I quickly feel constipated or nauseous. Ughh. BUT the one thing I did notice was that I totally think I ovulated this month because of it. That was about 2 weeks ago when I felt.... now I know TMI, but it's got to be said.... WET down there. Completely. and when I checked it was just how they describe it online like "egg white." I was so happy because that meant that the metformin was working it's magic internally. I haven't gotten my period which is good... real good. and I'm sooooo tired that all I want to do is sleep. And now my boobies are quite sensitive... I've also been craving everything in front of my face. It's crazy. I'm hoping it's pregnancy, BUT I DON'T WANT TO GET MY HOPES UP. I'm gonna test tomorrow, which would be about 2 weeks past ovulation, so who knows. WISH ME LOTS OF LUCK. And THROW SOME BABY DUST! LOL... Welp, we'll see.... either period or BFP... one or the other must come... Such a crazy and mentally exhausting roller coaster this PCOS turned out to be.

Oh My God I'm a Hormonal Mess!

This week I found out my sister is pregnant again. I'm so happy for her, but so sad for me. I can't help it. I'm crying all the time and really it's pathetic! Aghhh.... I need to get my emotions under control. I totally feel like such a horrible sister for feeling so jealous. :(